I love this story from the book 'A New Earth', by Eckhart Tolle: 'When two ducks get into a fight, it never lasts long – they soon separate and fly off in opposite directions. Each duck then flap its wings vigorously several times. This releases the surplus energy that built up in him during the fight. After they flap their wings, they fly on peacefully as if nothing had ever happened.
Now, if the duck had a human mind, this scene would go very differently. The duck may fly away peacefully, for a moment, but he would not put the fight behind him. He would keep the fight alive in his mind, by thinking and story-making.'
I wish I was a duck sometimes.
But, being human and with the human mindset described in the second paragraph, I have trembled with that surplus energy that builds up during conflict.
I have done many things with that energy over the years. I have eaten food with it, used it to pour wine, overthink, go to the pub, fight with an unsuspecting stranger, or loved one, cry, scream, withdraw, disappoint and despair.
I have sought healthier, more self caring outlets for this energy, meditation, yoga, exercise, a hot bath. Sometimes I feel better when I turn my house on, wash clothes, clean rooms, light the fire, cook dinner, put some music on... anything to restore the sense of safe equilibrium and harmony to my rattled being. Anything to find home again.
Still, wouldn't it be lovely being a duck? To just flap your wings and let it go, like really let it go? What must it be like to truly be free of that energy? I don't know.. do you?
I've recently started art journalling. I had heard of this practice before, in fact, I had been practicing it unknown to myself since I was a teenager, but I had no idea how, when devoted to the practice, therapeutic an outlet it is for spilling out that energy, OUT not IN. Because letting go doesn't come so easy to me.
Being a creative person, I have a deep affinity with and need for transformation. I absorb energy easily and for some reason I seem compelled to transform it before I let it go.
Why I wonder do I need that? It's a lot of pressure to put on oneself, transforming energy. But I feel if I don't, I've let it out in to the world unaffected.
Through art journalling, I have discovered a way to flap my wings!
What about you? How do you deal with bad vibes? Where do you flap your wings? I'd love to hear your experiences and discoveries!
Always, Amanda xoxo