Hello my darlin, Many times I have heard or read that our greatest strengths are the things we do naturally, so naturally in fact that we don’t even realise we’re doing it.. That the ‘thing’ we’re doing is not the common practice we think it is. Instead it has become so common to us, it has been minimised and allocated a place of unimportance in our lives.
For months I have hurt my head with this inquiry.
What are you doing instinctively that others would call 'work?'
Is it something I do in my counselling and facilitation work? It seems there is a connection, I have been doing this work for the past 3 years, formally studying and training in for the past 5 years, but drawn to a lifetime. I do that work not for the money, but because it's fulfilling. Something about it appeals very much to my nature, the part of me who seeks to connect with others on the path of trying to find peace with the mysteries of who we are. Yet still there is a clock in and clock out, there is a divide, there is a sense of needing some distance from it.
Is it love? I'm blessed to have in my life, the love of family and friends. But love is not something you 'do', it's something you feel, although you 'do' things to support and nurture that love. Wait, has it to do with nurturing? Yes, nurturing in turn serves something else.. it ticks some box that has to do with survival, love, belonging. The need to belong is very strong. It's an important one.
I've been on quite a journey the past few years and the path I've been travelling has led me to here, to being able to sense something about who I am that I have been unable to allow before. I'm sensing a space has been cleared for some part of me to surface safely and to belong here now. I believe this part of me is the one in which my strength, my unique ability has been hidden.
Maybe you've discovered your 'place' of belonging..but are all parts of you welcome there?
This is an evolution of the original inquiry. All the while I've been chewing on the question of 'what's missing', evidence has been manifesting around me, but because it has been scattered and layered and woven into the fabric of my life, I never noticed. It's so funny, it brings tears to my eyes when I think about it... it's been here all along, it's a long lost part of me coming home. During her exile, she became skilled at many things, one of which was flying under the radar, that was her secret to survival. She's been in my life, under my nose, the whole time... expressing and processing for me all the experiences I've ever had. Working things out, letting things go... decluttering, making room so that one day I may see her in the woods... and that she would be more than just a tree.
I have heard the question asked 'What makes you stand out?'. I've never been comfortable with that question. I don't like the idea of 'standing out'. It's counter intuitive.. who wants to stand out? For what? To take the brunt of something? No thanks! I've just realised my concept of what it means to 'stand out' was problematic as long as I took it to mean standing out, as in 'out' of and from the crowd.. so I reframed it.
'What makes you step forward?'... Ah, doesn't that question feel different?
What do you feel when you ask yourself this?
This is the second instalment of the series 'Discovering your Soul Nook', the first of which, 'Where do you belong?' can be found here.
Part 3, 'Where do you step forward?'
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Always, Amanda <3