I have to admit, tonight I'm a ball of all over the place-ness emotionally. I'm feeling an uneasy combination of tiredness, worry, anxiety, disappointment, loneliness, neediness, confusion, frustration, doubt, anticipation, excitement... how can I be feeling all those things at once? Also, today has been a 'quiet' day so I've been in my head for a lot of it.
Terry left this morning for another long haul, we only had a short time together this weekend, so part of it is that.
We got our confirmation about the house today (hooray!) and gave our landlord his notice so the move to Enniskillen is set for the end of October, about five weeks. I'm 12 years living in this community. I'm not enmeshed here, but I am comfortable and content.
So that's another part, the move, being unsettled for the space of time it takes, the packing, the unpacking... the deciding what is coming with and what has to be stored. Getting settled in a new parish, finding my feet..finding some friendly faces, work and tapping into the creative community there.
The excitement comes with the idea of living in a forest! Yes, the house we're renting is in a forest and on a lake... hello! I can't wait to experience the dawn chorus there (Note this implies getting up at dawn, something I'm not known for).
The transition is most of it...
Then there's the upcoming art retreat at Bantry House in Cork... only 2 more sleeps until that arrives and I don't know what to expect other than something a bit life changing; I hope that's not expecting too much.
Tomorrow evening will be 'throw a suitcase together' night... sounds feckless, but it's actually my packing system. Tonight I've been checking my supplies lists and all is gathered and ready to go.
There was other stuff too, just personal, womanly stuff that plays with the emotions.. that'll be fine.
So I'm sitting here with not much to say other than to just say how I'm feeling and what's going on...
Something made me think to answer some of these 'getting to know you' questions as a form of distraction... so, why not..
If you could throw any kind of party, what would it be like and what would it be for?
At the moment I think an art party would be fun. Especially after collaborating on this project over the weekend
If you could paint a picture of any scenery you’ve seen before, what would you paint?
I once had a dream years ago that was so vivid in it's imagery, I always wished I could have painted it. It was like some sort of gathering of people around a volcano for some sort of ritual.. everything was red and smoky...and dramatic, it was a bit eery though. In real life, maybe the Cliffs of Moher, they've always had the wow factor for me.
If you could choose to stay a certain age forever, what age would it be?
If you'd have asked me at 35, I would have said that age. Definitely no younger. But then, I met Terry at 36 & lost my age anxiety after that!
If you could choose anyone, who would you pick as your mentor?
If you could witness any event past, present or future, what would it be?
The land before time... Dinosaurs, definitely. Although the creation of the universe would be deadly too! Lol
If you could learn to do anything, what would it be?
What I'm learning now!
If you had to work on only one project for the next year, what would it be?
Creating Daisy Jane
If you were immortal for a day, what would you do?
If you had to change your first name, what would you change it to?
If you could know the answer to any question, besides “What is the meaning of life?”, what would it be?
Why is there no butter pecan ice cream in Ireland?
If you could be any fictional character, who would you choose?
Daisy Jane of course!
Ok.... the night has officially been spent... Goodnight! <3
Always, Amanda <3